So here I am typing away at the new chapters I wanna post and I suddenly realize, oh hey, I'm losing motivation. So then I go on to the lovely internet in search of inspiration, and then I think to myself, maybe if I take a break I can come back and do this.
I never came back.
I decided it would be a fun idea to go on my Xbox and have some fun by playing Assassins creed 3. Oh man, was it fun, but it just left a slight problem.
I'm addicted to it and now I don't know what to do. ALL OF MY FEELS FOR HETALIA ARE GONE AND HAVE SHIPPED OFF INTO THIS WONDERFUL WORLD OF ASSASSINS CREED SPECIFICALLY FOR A CERTAIN MAN NAMED CONNOR KENWAY AHASFBDFHUEOSDNC HALP
but don't worry, I'm still going to periodically update when I can, I should be uploading something in the next few days I do believe.
And to be quite honest I'm having like a mid-life crisis even though I'm 16. I used to adore anime and everything and used to be all into it and now... now I just... I don't know. It's not as appeasing as it was. I feel as if I'm becoming a new person or something. Maybe this is a phase? Maybe not? I promised so many stories, and I would be so infuriated with myself if because of this I had to stop altogether with my fanfictions...
Speaking of that I'm getting so sick of the fanfiction fandom. There are a multitude of wonderful works out there, but because of the amount of mary sues and ignorant cocky writers I just get so upset. I see amazing writings go to waste because nobody likes it and then I see a story full of shit and mary sues get amazing ratings just because it has fanservice or fluff. You have no idea how much that pisses me off as a writer. To know that nowadays barely any people have enough sense to realize what a good work of fiction is...
One reason it pisses me off is not only because that author doesn't deserve that praise, but because their shitty story is getting so many positive reviews, they end up creating more shit. They ignorantly create more mary sues and more cliche plot lines because they have come to the misconception that their work is good when it is ultimately not. And I can do nothing to stop it.
There's a lot more I want to say right now, but I won't, because if I get into what really is bothering me then this will turn into like a multi-page journal of all my problems and I think people are done hearing me bitch and whine about all my excuses and problems right now, so I'm just going to leave you all with this.